I’ve been denied for 6 and a half months now, and it looks likely that Bear will indulge me to extend that to a year. Or two. Or longer? I am alternately struggling with that thought, and deeply grateful. On the one hand, this is what I asked for. It excites me to be denied for long periods of time, I know I am better off denied, and in my mind, being denied for years or decades while Bear comes a couple times a week feels both deeply submissive on my part, and indulgent on Bear’s part. On the other hand, by Pan I could use an orgasm, and the prospect of not having one for years, decades or “ever” is scary, and hard to adjust to. On the gripping hand, I really don’t have to worry about it. Bear will have me come for his amusement at some point, at least that’s highly likely; and if he doesn’t and I truly can’t take it any more, I have but to ask for an orgasm, and I am certain he’ll allow it.
My piercing allows 9.8mm 00g jewelry now, the “Monster Screwball Ring“. I was a little worried about the weight at first. It did pinch at times for the first few days, but my dick adjusted, and now it’s comfortable. I like it a lot. There’s something about jewelry that fills out most of my urethra that’s deeply satisfying to me. Because reasons, I’m sticking a gratuitous dick pic of the jewelry at the bottom.
The excess skin around the piercing continues to bother me, however. I saw a urologist and the surgeon agreed to cut that extra skin away. This will require sutures and the jewelry has to be out for a week. Which means the piercing will close down again. That’s a real bummer. I’ll ask the surgeon whether a plastic retainer would work. Stretching is likely what caused the skin growth in the first place. I really don’t want to stretch back up again, and I really like the 00g.
I’ve checked in with Evotion on the replacement pin for the chastity cage. It might arrive just in time to wear it for a little bit before surgery.