This is mental

I’ve been denied for 6 and a half months now, and it looks likely that Bear will indulge me to extend that to a year. Or two. Or longer? I am alternately struggling with that thought, and deeply grateful. On the one hand, this is what I asked for. It excites me to be denied for long periods of time, I know I am better off denied, and in my mind, being denied for years or decades while Bear comes a couple times a week feels both deeply submissive on my part, and indulgent on Bear’s part. On the other hand, by Pan I could use an orgasm, and the prospect of not having one for years, decades or “ever” is scary, and hard to adjust to. On the gripping hand, I really don’t have to worry about it. Bear will have me come for his amusement at some point, at least that’s highly likely; and if he doesn’t and I truly can’t take it any more, I have but to ask for an orgasm, and I am certain he’ll allow it.

My piercing allows 9.8mm 00g jewelry now, the “Monster Screwball Ring“. I was a little worried about the weight at first. It did pinch at times for the first few days, but my dick adjusted, and now it’s comfortable. I like it a lot. There’s something about jewelry that fills out most of my urethra that’s deeply satisfying to me. Because reasons, I’m sticking a gratuitous dick pic of the jewelry at the bottom.

The excess skin around the piercing continues to bother me, however. I saw a urologist and the surgeon agreed to cut that extra skin away. This will require sutures and the jewelry has to be out for a week. Which means the piercing will close down again. That’s a real bummer. I’ll ask the surgeon whether a plastic retainer would work. Stretching is likely what caused the skin growth in the first place. I really don’t want to stretch back up again, and I really like the 00g.

I’ve checked in with Evotion on the replacement pin for the chastity cage. It might arrive just in time to wear it for a little bit before surgery.

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4 thoughts on “This is mental”

  1. Thanks! I am, btw, not going to have the foreskin removed. It’s a bit of skin and scar tissue around the piercing hole, which you can’t see here. That smarts when Bear teases me, and gets downright painful with a chastity cage. I’ll put up before / after pictures with the surgery - and will have to see how far it closes down while it heals.

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    1. It took years. And a few mistakes - stretching created additional skin that eventually broke that led to painful scar tissue that I had removed surgically. Most people I read about don't have that hard of a time, they just stretch "naturally" and easily, with one bloke claiming he got to 00g in a year, by just letting the weight of the jewelry do its thing.
      Dicks all behave their own way. Special snowflakes the lot of them.

      I really loved that 00g. It was heavy enough that it would "weigh down" my erections. Even raging hard, my dick would remain lying on my thigh because of the weight. That's a fun mind-fuck. I'm down to Titanium 0.5ga to let the surgery heal, and I expect I can get back to 00ga again quite easily once this is fully healed.

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